Should I finally give up on expecting to meet someone special within the next 3 years? Or should I continue with false hope, like I will meet someone special? I don't want to expect to meet anyone special before I die because that would either be too late or that I would have no more energy left for anything.

I am planning to go full spiritual for the remainder of my life, but I am still a bit hopeful.

You are still considered as young. What the rush?

Cheers.

Thank you very much for the response.

Lol, I really hope I am still young. I am nearing 40 and I can feel my energy is declining much by the years. I don't want to meet someone "special" at age 60 only to find out she is just a gold digger. In the past, when I was still in school and at college, there were plenty of opportunities but I was never a playboy so I never grab any of the opportunities. I missed a few really big opportunities in the past that I still regret to these days. When I was young, I did my own astrology reading multiple times and found my relationship will have very bad outcome if I marry early, unless I marry late. And so I restrained from getting into any relationship. As a result, the person that I regret not pursuing/responding to have already married to someone else. Did I have a chance even back then? Yes, very much. But from my family circumstances and astrological readings, I restrained myself. In my heart there is no one else. Maybe if I told her my feelings back then, she would have waited for me. So at my age now, I do feel and believe the chance for another one is actually close to none. So if you say no chance, or something negative, that would be good enough for me to make the final decision to forget about all these once and for all and go full spiritual. Not to say to become a monk, but to do Taoist/spiritual cultivation for my own future. I don't want to continuously be bogged down by the thoughts and false hope (maybe) that someday I will have a chance. Maybe you can deliver the final blow to me so my heart can finally rest in peace on this. That would be very good.